I am starting all over (Or am I?)

This was my last message to you, well over a month ago.

The pause in sending messages came because I had to zero in on my final exams and wrap up all the requirements for completing my B.Sc. studies—which, thankfully, I’ve now successfully done (congratulations to me, I guess 🙂).

But behind the joy of finishing one phase comes the uncertainty—and, honestly, the fear—of starting another. I’m writing this unsure of what comes next, especially now that my undergraduate journey is officially over. B.Sc. in Statistics. It has a nice ring to it, lol.

The warm cover the four walls of the university once provided is gone, and the cold of the outside world seeps in quickly. Even though I’m only a few days into this new chapter, I can already tell—it’s tough. How have people been surviving out here all this while?

The truth that my future depends entirely on me can no longer be ignored by burying myself in assignments, tests, and exams. There’s no place to run, no place to hide. I’ve always known I define my own path, but knowing it and being hit in the face by it are two very different things.

This feels like a wake-up call, a loud one at that. A call to tune into my higher purpose. For me, that means writing more consistently, distilling what I’ve overcome into clear, actionable frameworks, and sharing ideas that make life a little easier, a little lighter not just for me, but for you too. Writing and creating has always been where I return to, the place that helps me make sense of everything.

At the end of the day, I need to take my own advice: do it scared. Do it because the not knowing is where the real growth—and the real fun—happens. Honestly, what’s the fun in already knowing exactly what the future holds? Sounds rather boring, if you ask me.

So here’s to a not-so-fresh start, but a deeper dive into what I’ve always known to be my path while embracing all the uncertainty and fear that come with it.

This is the only way forward, don’t you think?